Thanksgiving...

I know this is probably a few days late since it's about Thanksgiving and all but I'll talk about it anyway. I need to actually. First and foremost we went to my mom and dad's house for Thanksgiving. We planned to stay there for the entire break and it was going to be a much needed getaway...well maybe I was wrong! When we first got there it felt pretty good. I mean my parents had started cooking like pies and stuff which was pretty normal for my house around Thanksgiving so everything looked great. Well mom told me that Nathan and Ashley were coming up that night or the next morning. Oh boy, that was not fun to hear about at all. I don't really like my brother or my sister in law. I was looking forward to seeing my new neice though! :D So that kind of sucked. Well after Nathan and Ashley got up there my parents started to treat Bec and me differently and they really started to treat Cass differently. That is what bothered me the most. Don't treat my daughter different just because biological grandchildren are there. Now, my parents kept trying to hint at how they don't approve of my being in a same sex relationship. They think I'm going to have to deal with god or whatever. We will see if that actually happens and if it does I'll tell him that I am his creation. Bam got that covered bitches. Anyway, that was a slight tangent. Well this upset Bec a lot but I guess I'm kind of used to it. Whatever. So Bec wanted to leave on Thursday before we even had dinner. This upset me some but I just get in this mindset of just deal with it until Nat and Ash are gone and then things get better. Well Bec doesn't let go of things as well as I do. It's one of the differences between us. So Bec said she wanted to leave on Friday after Nat and Ash had already left. She wanted to go. So she started packing her stuff and decided she was leaving, with or without me. She was tired of mom and dad acting like the sun shown out of Nat's ass and them treating his two kids awesome and acting sort of like Cass wasn't there. So we argued some and mom had given me some money to go get something from the grocery store. After Bec and I argued, I told her we would leave so I went downstairs to tell my mom that we were leaving. I was super upset and crying at this point. So when I got downstairs my mom made me sit down and talk to her. I couldn't really say anything other than something along the lines of Bec feels unappreciated. This was directed at them not at me making her feel this way. Well my mom thought it was because I made her feel that way. Not the best way of putting it but I couldn't say anything else. I don't know. So instead of my mom clarifying what was going on, she ran upstairs instead. Bec said she wanted to just talk at first but Bec didn't want to talk. My mom tried to stop her from walking through a door by putting her hands on her and Bec spazed out. Then they started yelling at each other so I ran upstairs. My dad understood why she was upset. He knew it was because of how they were acting. Anyway, I got upstairs in time to hear my mom call Bec the source of all of my problems, which she isn't. She pays all the bills and works so I don't have to. My mom also called her a cunt and some other stuff. Bec said some pretty nasty stuff as well. I felt like I was in elementary school again having to pick between friends. I have always felt like I was on a cusp and having to choose sides. Is it because of my astrological sign being on a cusp of conflicting elements? I don't get it. So now Bec wants nothing to do with my mother and won't accept her apologies. My mom is sort of acting like it didn't happen and Bec is angry because I have kind of made up with my mom. We still have some stuff to talk out but I cannot bring myself to hold a grudge. It's not in my nature. I'm sorry. I can't do it because the moment I feel like I hold that grudge, I know that something bad will happen to that person, no matter who they are or their relationship to me, and I will live with that for the rest of my life. Knowing that something happened while we were on bad terms. I can't live with that. I know I can't. So this is the short of what happened. I've already had arguements with Bec about graduation and who will be there because of the shit with my mom. What am I supposed to do? Tell my mother she can't come to her baby girl's graduation from college? I'm sorry, she's waited 21 years for this day. I won't make her miss it.